Just a few days ago I finally saw “It’s a Beautiful Day in the Neighborhood” – the film dramatizing an episode in Mr. Roger’s life. I had seen the documentary, but had no idea about the particular slice of life that this film focused on. I couldn’t stop crying.
Have you ever had an episode when a story, or even a particular set of words, set off your emotional well-spring?
It’s such a common occurrence with me that I’ve come to see it as a feedback loop to engage with. It seems that for me, the triggers point to things I’m more present to at a particular time. As examples…
- Any story about loss might trigger feelings of missing special people in my life.
- Whenever someone shares generous commendations or expressions of pride in another (as a parent might to a child), the trap of, “I have to do something amazing to be worthy of love” rather than the more healthy “what I do is fueled by the amazing love I’ve received” is loosened.
- If ever there is a story about reconciliation (especially between a father and a son), I’m struck by the miracle of full and deep reconciliation.
I make note of the last example, because the trigger does not apply to me specifically. My own relationship with my father is thankfully quite good. There is just something about that story that gets to the heart of my being, and my desire to witness and be a part of reconciliation, wherever it may be needed or happening.
The interesting thing I’ve experienced is that depending on what I’m working through (what areas of my heart are more exposed), the triggers change. One story that could have been a guarantee to bring on the ugly tears one month becomes a trigger for joy the next. I take note of this too, as it seems to signify growth and/or healing (a cause for celebration and thanks).
What has been hitting your heart these days?